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Cake day: June 2nd, 2023

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  • I want to give you a belated “thank you” for writing this up! I had kinda been feeling like I’d reached a dead end with my whole gender exploration adventure, but you have not only inspired me to do a second (longer) trial run using EV instead of EEn (which I have just started), but I’m also gonna go to a local meetup for trans/enby/questioning people later this week. Something about your comment here really helped me get out of the rut I was in. Thanks for all your support!!! ❤️


  • Re-reading your original question, it should have been pretty obvious in retrospect that I am not really in the target audience. welp, my bad :P

    I didn’t get any blood work done unfortunately, since my doctor’s office refuses to do it without a specific request from my GP (and the whole reason I wanted to do a trial run DIY was because I can’t realistically do this kind of stuff the legit way at the moment), so I just went with a dose a bit higher than the dosages I’d seen recommended online for “most” people and figured it was unlikely that that wouldn’t be enough. Since I saw nipple changes almost immediately I assumed that it was doing the trick, but the expected other effects just never came and I stopped when my nipples had become large enough that I was about to start needing a bra to stop them visibly poking through my shirt.

    I didn’t really consider that the longer half-life was super relevant to the “startup delay”, most resources I found online seemed to show it nearly reaching the steady state level after only one or two doses. If that was actually the problem that’s a pretty big derp on my part, but I’m already planning to give it another shot once I’m not living at home.


  • I did estrogen monotherapy for about 2 months earlier this year. Quite frankly, the only changes I noticed was an immediate and significant increase in nipple sensitivity+size, and a reduction of nighttime erections. Other than that I didn’t notice any of the early changes which I had been lead to expect within the first few weeks: no emotional differences, no reduction in skin oiliness, no changes in body temperature, etc.

    For what it’s worth, I was taking 1.4ml/week of 40% estradiol enanthate without any antiandrogens, am in my early 20s and have a very low body mass.








  • In my experience, nouveau is painfully slow and crashes constantly to the point of being virtually unusable for anything. The developers agree, as in the last couple months nouveau has been phased out of Mesa entirely. More recent Mesa versions now implement OpenGL on Nvidia using Zink on NVK, and the result is quite a bit faster and FAR more stable.

    If your distribution currently still ships a Mesa version which uses nouveau, I would personally recommend you just stick with the Intel graphics for now.


  • Aside from checking the kernel log (sudo dmesg) and system log (sudo journalctl -xe) for any interesting messages, I might suggest simply watching for any processes which are abnormally high while the system is running slow. My initial approach would be to use htop (disable “Hide Kernel Threads” and enable “Detailed CPU Time”), and seeing which processes, if any, are eating up your CPU time. The colored core utilization bars at the top show how much CPU time is being spent on what: gray for disk wait, red for kernel, green for regular user process, etc. That information will be a good starting point.