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Cake day: June 26th, 2023

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  • I hold a weekly project review/coordination meeting via Teams where we discuss all our project statuses, due dates, etc with the relevant team members, make new assignments, etc. And while our new offices are being built I’m exiled to the conference room instead of my desk so that my talking doesn’t annoy people who aren’t in the meeting.

    Everything is being tracked on a spreadsheet, and I’m sharing my screen while updating everything and I’m having to live-type in front of 20 people and my shitty laptop keyboard.

    It’s the worst.















  • Lots of things like grey hair, moving more slowly, injuries that I would have bounced away from before instead hurting for weeks or months.

    But the one that hit hardest was a breakup I had a little while back. She was the love of my life and I fully intended to marry her, and when she ended it out of nowhere I was sad, but fine. She dumped me, and it sucked, but I also needed to finish a staff report for a Planning and Zoning Commission meeting that night. So I moved on.

    The thing that upset me most was that I wasn’t that upset. There was a time in my life when I would have been a mess. But as I’ve aged, my emotions have become more regulated.

    I miss being capable of that level of joy and pain.