just another Redditrefugee who has been thinking too much about the internet lately.

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Cake day: June 12th, 2023

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  • These days I’m more of a boomer shooter dude, but the trailer hooked me and I regret nothing. Haven’t tried the newest Postal yet. Played postal 2 back in the day. blood west is likely next up for me.

    Devs like Hyperstrange and New Blood are killing it these days, in a time when the big devs are laying off entire teams. It’s amazing what happens when you have smaller devs who are focused on the games and not chasing number-go-up.

    As New Blood says, “We love you. We hate money.”






  • Here’s the closest I’ve got.

    Priest - History In Black

    Priest is an electronic music project originally formed by ex-members of the hugely popular band Ghost. I’d call this Darkwave, but the label doesn’t matter, it’s depeche mode-y and don’t let the gimp mask put you off, I believe the song is very sincere.

    I can't stop, it's too late, it pours out, it's my fate
    My legacy in black
    Looking in to my eyes, see the things i despise
    My soul is tainted black
    
    I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
    I'm free of all the lunacy
    I never want it back, my history in black
    
    Silent screams longing voice, violent dreams, ringing noise
    My memory is black
    It's not a mask, it's my skin
    Please don't ask where i've been
    My heart is painted black
    
    I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
    I'm free of all the lunacy
    I'm never want it back, my history in black
    
    I escaped from the cage inside
    
    I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
    I'm free of all the lunacy
    I never want it back, my history in black
    My history in black
    

  • It’s a song that speaks to your flavour of depression. Makes you feel like someone feels the exact same way you do. That in turn makes you feel sane. Like you’re heard. Even understood.

    Over time, songs (or movies or other things) can become a ritual - you feel awful, listen to the song, eventually you come out the other side as the depressive episode fades. Then the next time it happens you associate the song with your recovery. So over time it becomes What You Do when you Feel That Way.




  • I believe that that “cancel culture” is really just “consequence culture.” At one point users could hold powerful entities to account. The flattening of the public sphere twitter provided was a feature.

    Absolutely there have been people who got targeted who did not deserve it - regular folks who posted a shit take that caught the mobs attention. But I think one of the motivations for Elon acquiring twitter and threads’ non-chronological feed is to clamp down on this kind of of organizing and centralize power.

    As for hate speech, the problem that is that any solution at scale means AI and that reveals the biases of those who wrote it. These solutions can’t serve everyone.

    And outrage fuels engagement - these companies are incentived to allow that.

    So basically I think large networks can’t solve the problem. What’s needed is a decentralized approach with small interoperable communities vetting their members. Even if you get a hate filled instance it can be locked off so it can’t spread. Hate-motivated jerks have always existed, they just had no real access to the discourse until the internet. I really think the answer is the fediverse of tomorrow - if we make it that far.




  • I quit smoking by gradually stepping back until I got to the last 4 darts, which I just couldn’t shake. Then I moved to vaping, not trying to quit, but to be less worse for my health… Then my vape broke repeatedly in a short period and I realized going without wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. Certainly not as bad as other methods of quitting it tried. So in this way I finally quit.

    So I don’t recommend vaping as a way out really. It’s more that if you consciously realize which cigarette is your last you’re gonna freak out and relapse. It’s more that if you reduce your intake, then replace, you can step off more easily. Don’t focus on quitting or changing your lifestyle drastically, just keep taking steps. Eventually one will be the last.


  • I can’t, though I can lucid dream. When people say “read,” I feel like they’re thinking of printed text but I find some I have similar problem with technology use. Like sometimes I’m trying to find something on the internet, or to show something on my phone to someone and it keeps not making sense. And I keep trying it again and again and it just get worse until I realize I’m dreaming.