(It’s weird to call it “falling in love”, because it’s more like a childish and annoying infatuation, but anyway…)
I’m already terrible at socializing, but it’s especially difficult for me to create genuine friendships with women because I can’t help thinking of them as “possible future partners” (or some bullshit like that) and feel “jealous” when I see them talking to other men. It’s stupid, a really stupid and annoying felling.
I know there is something in me that I need to change, but I don’t know what, and I need some assistance.
I would like to feel more comfortable with my singleness and reserve my feelings for someone who can really reciprocate, while forging more non-romantic relationships with other people.
It does helps! Maybe there’s a bit of ego in my way of seeing things.
And as you said, People are complex, it’s true, it’s difficult to understand ourselves. That’s why it’s good to share experiences with others in order to find inner answers. Thanks for sharing!