Think it’s just you. Looked through my posts lol

Were you not there for the search for Ulterior Motives?

Being behind everyone sucks.

The thing is that I wake up at 4PM to go to work from 6PM to 6:30AM

At 7AM I’m done for the day. I want dinner.

Life. I tried several times to make it better and every time it “gets better” it actually gets worse than it was before. I was misdiagnosed as the blue puzzle piece and even though I literally am not that crap I’m still practically stalked by adult protective service even after changing my name and using a ups store as my “address”. I never tell anyone about the MISdiagnosis because they never believe it was a mistake. Yet a lot of people still infantilize me and talk to me like I’m minutes old. These people would treat a literal preschooler like they’re more mature than me. I can keep running but I can’t hide from that damn puzzle piece. And honestly I’m tired of running. 🥱🔫

Everyone can like or dislike anything, but that stupid puzzle piece made me like or dislike stuff. No, lostwave is not a “special interest” it’s just a thing I enjoy. I don’t play video games because of that stupid puzzle piece, I play games because they’re FUN. I made games for a hobby, not because that stupid fucking puzzle piece made me like programming. You don’t need to talk to other people about me in front of me like I’m an animal, about why these things “make me so happy”.

I hate how I’m perpetually too old AND too young for everything. Everything family friendly is age regression, and everything else is “not suitable” for me. Smash Bros and Overwatch were both, a game for little kids, and a game with too much violence. But if I don’t enjoy anything anymore, that stupid puzzle piece is why, and not all the bullshit I got from literally everyone in my life.

I give up on life because I’m sick and tired of living as a puppet controlled by a disorder I don’t even have. I’m tired of fighting to be human. I’m done.

… Yes?

Start wherever. Buy games with interesting covers or play free demos.

Good thing I hate “breakfast food” and only eat string cheese and croissants from there lmao

I loathe fast food breakfast like WHY is that a thing. Also my local taco bell serves lunch at 7am yayyy

But anyway I’d get breakfast from Starbucks

Work at amazon they hire anyone over 18 regardless of diplomas/degrees etc (at this time they’re hiring a lot and quickly! only go to hiring.amazon.com) If you get converted to regular permanent associate they pay your College Tuition and there’s more too

Delivery station is the easiest and as someone with lower cognitive ability (ptsd sucks that bad y’all) I can work there easily and it’s not overwhelming