

Read “Black skin white masks” from Fanon. He talks about this phenomenon and race in general.
Edit: Explaining a little bit about what’s on the book on this.
Basically, on the racist framework of society, black will always be bad, being black as the worst and lowest of the social hierarchy. Being mixed, means almost white, almost there, so a white man is the necessary status to be or feel white, also kids would be whiter. Going with a black man means going back, retrograding into a state of blackness, etc.
I’m not saying this about these women specifically, but at the structural level, what is expected in relation to race.
Edit 2: wording






It depends, if it’s a problem I’m trying to solve, if it’s a presentation that I’m going to do, if I need to communicate with someone. Like I thought about responding this, while trying to observe how it works.
Normally there are a lot of monologues happening at the same time and I’m probably listening to music too, so I’m like 30 seconds thinking about something, pass to another something and then the good part of the music comes. I took ADHD meds once and damn, this completely disappeared hahahaha.
But, depending on the thing, if it’s a concept I’m trying to tackle, normally it’s just me alone passing through it, its ramifications, consequences, basis, etc. If I’m trying to talk to someone, I like to imagine them and interact with myself playing as them. Sometimes it’s like yours, two of me separated from me “debating”.